The Infirmary- Isis' Suite
"Nobody is saying that you have to live in The Clocktower, Isis. Surely with the help of your nephew you could find more than satisfactory accomodations. You don't even have to LIVE in the city if you don't want. You can be anywhere you need to be in an instant. Distance is no problem."
:: She tried to brush past the Ashley part, but she knew that wouldn't last long. ::
:: Did she really think Isis was WORRIED about where she'd live? It was ORACLE who offered her and Richard accommodation, which she accepted due to having just departed the Hellfire Club, and wanting time to herself AWAY from the Six. But that was when she thought Oracle was SERIOUS about what she was trying to do.::
:: The look on Dominique's face told Vivica that she was losing her as she tried to gloss over Ashley.::
:: Vivica paused for a moment. How could she get THROUGH to Isis with such a large obstacle in the way? She wasn't going to through Ashley under the bus. She cared about her, and the two of them worked very well together in the field. And she promised Ashley that she would be there for her from here on out. ::
"Have you ever known somebody..in so much pain..experiencing such deep hurt that they isolate everyone around them in one way or another? That the things they do..or say..are almost like a charicature of a person? Those people so lost and confused that they choose one thing to lead with and leave the rest behind because it's too painful?"
I was that person...when Set attacked my village, raped my sister...and hurt me when I tried to stop him. I was that person, when I BEGGED my sister to end that unholy pregnancy, to save her life, and she refused....and the moment Nicolas was born...her life was forfeit.
I was written off as insane...and I left the only home I knew. I wandered the harsh, unforgiving desert, waiting...HOPING to die. But my goddess..she heard my cries...she saw my heart...and DESPITE how I was in that moment..she came to me. She offered me salvation...and a chance to live life anew.
But even now, with all that's happened, with where Nicolas and I stand today...the memories of my sister and SET...are STILL a source of great pain. There are times...where I STILL have to put distance between myself and Nicolas....because I know what COST was paid for him to be in this world.
I don't blame HIM...not like I used to...not like when I came here, seeking REVENGE.
:: And she cut a path from one side of the world to the other to get to Nicolas, even destroying many men on his company's board of investors, and coming nearly close to striking him dead herself during the Sisterhood's battle with the Six on Aerie::
But the PAIN never truly goes away.
:: Vivica could see Dominique looking reflective, and a bit mournful, but for she straightened up a bit. Was she trying to get Dominique to somehow...IDENTIFY with Ashley's rude, disgusting behavior?!::
"I've been there myself a few times in my life. Wanting so badly to be understood but doing nothing to help the situation and then getting angry at a situation I was causing. I see that with Ashley. She does awful things. She says terrible things out of nowhere, I know all of this. She tests even MY patience..and it wasn't easy at first. But she's saying and doing all of these things because she's trying to convince herself that she IS these things..."
:: She looked away for a moment. ::
"She is the way she is...because it DISGUISES the things she doesn't want to show the world anymore. It doesn't take a psychologist to see that. It just takes a person that knows real pain...to recognize it. I recognize that in her."
Even when I lost my way...and strayed from the covenant I made with my goddess...I was not capricious in violence or disrespect, the way SHE is. I did not DELIGHT in the suffering of others. I did not go out of my way to MOCK, BELITTLE, INSULT, or BULLY others.
:: She shook her head::
That woman is the worst.
:: She looked away for a moment. ::
"She is the way she is...because it DISGUISES the things she doesn't want to show the world anymore. It doesn't take a psychologist to see that. It just takes a person that knows real pain...to recognize it. I recognize that in her."
"I'm not saying that any of that..is an excuse. Or makes any of what you've experience less than what it IS. I UNDERSTAND why you feel the way you do about it. I get it.."
"I think because of how she acts, people forget how long lived she is. She's not an amateur either, Dominique. She was deemed worthy by the Norse GODS to do what she did. She walked hand in hand with death for decades. I can't imagine the things that she has seen or done or experienced doing what she did..but I think you probably can."
And are the Norse gods somehow ABOVE my pantheon- Isis, Nut, Set.... or that of the Amazons- Athena, Demeter, Artemis? Vivica, there ARE other gods and goddesses, other paths, SURELY a woman with the powers and insight that you have are aware of that. Our pantheons know of one another, and show good will, RESPECT, and have even WORKED TOGETHER in times of necessity and need. The NORSE gods have worked us before as well. THEY are not gripped by the same petty ARROGANCE that SHE is, and her Norse pedigree doesn't put her ABOVE anyone else.
:: She looked at Vivica with an unwavering gaze::
How many times has Valkyrie displayed a bigoted stance toward the Amazons simply for being who they are without even KNOWING what they can do, or their character? It would be DISHONEST of you OR I to say that neither of us have experience that in our lives. Alycia, Richard, and Xavier, even Steel would certainly agree.
If ANYONE should be aware, sensitive and UNWILLING to accept that kind of behavior...especially a time that touts its DIVERSITY, it should be US. When you talk about a "team"...and accountability... if this is supposed to be an ACTUAL THING? Then EVERYONE should hold it EQUALLY. The expectation, the DEMAND for proper treatment should not be dismissed as "whining" or "being weak"....it should be recognized as a STANDARD that we ALL need to unhold.
She's here, in the infirmary that belongs to a woman she REGULARLY degrades, LAYING with a man who's life was DEFENDED by the AMAZONS and she has not shown one OUNCE of gratitude toward ANYONE involved in the efforts that Make Zach's continued existence possible.
I have a problem with that, and if you're not prepared to explain to me how that problem can be solved, then there will be no progress on the subject of Oldenburg, which in turn, preclude the other outcome I think you're hoping to achieve with this conversation.
:: she said coldly::
"Nobody wants to haze you. From what I can tell..everybody wants to get to know you. But you're not an easy person to get along with yourself. I have a relationship with Ashley because I wanted one. Because I put forth the effort to have one..to try and peel back the layers to try and see WHY she is always so goddamn angry. That might bite me in the ass down the road, but so far it hasn't. I don't know if it's intentional..or some kind of self preservation thing..but sometimes I just get the sense that you just don't really...WANT to let anybody in. You have your reasons I am sure...and knowing what I do know about you...I'm sure they are very good. But it does make things a little difficult. Because you're so closed off at times..it makes it hard for me to see where you are coming from..which makes it hard to defend you. And I want to help. I WANT to defend you. I realize that you are a woman of action and not words..but..my mama always said that a closed mouth doesn't get fed..and my mama was never wrong once."
:: Taking a sip again of her nearly empty coffee, she held the cup in her lap. ::
You spoke of self imposed isolation earlier.
:: She said with a less cold tone.::
The road that I walk requires discipline, VIGILANCE.
I have a COVENANT with my goddess, to safeguard life of Nicolas...so that his father, SET cannot return to this world.
If Nicolas' blood is spilled and he dies...the door way for Set will be irrevocably OPENED, and he will be reborn in renewed physical form through his SON'S BODY, adding Nicolas' powers to his own infamous abilities.
I MUST NOT LET THAT HAPPEN, Vivica.
:: Vivica now had a clear cut reason from the source herself::
I am his ONLY living blood relative, and this struggle is not just physical, it is waged on the astral plane as well. I spend more time, than any of you could know, providing a BUFFER for Nicolas, as Set tries to PRESS HIS WAY through the barriers that I have established in Nicolas' mind with my magicks.
::sighing::
To say that it is CHALLENGING at times...is putting it MILDLY.
With that said, there are other things...that people on this..."TEAM" fret over that just seem so....FRIVOLOUS by comparison. If anything, they take the FREEDOM and LACK OF BURDEN they have for granted, and it INFLAMES my contempt for them. Some of them waste time, worrying about things that JUST DON'T MATTER, and they dismiss that which they don't know. It's INFURIATING!
:: yet another moment of insight provided by Isis to answer Vivica's question::
Since my departure from the Hellfire club, it HAS gotten a bit easier. Nicolas HAS matured, and taken more of the burden, but he too gets...DISTRACTED sometimes, by the petty FOOLISHNESS of his team. They've wasted SO MUCH TIME since the Blue Moon.
With everything that's happened lately...the RISK was too great for me to NOT consider removing him from that group, even WITH Morgan's return.
But I was surprised...ENCOURAGED to see Delilah Trelevan step forward the way she did. It was her words, along with Nicolas' own efforts to correct a ERROR he made recently, that swayed me NOT to remove him from the Six.
But as I said to you earlier....this covenant...it requires discipline...VIGILANCE. Perhaps THIS might help you understand me better?
"I think you should work alongside Ashley because you've definitely worked alongside worse women for worse reasons.
:: Dominique laughed/scoffed loudly and waved Vivica away::
Well I think NOT.
You can put lipstick on a pig..but at the end of the day a pig is a pig. The Queens of The Sisterhood may have wore pretty masks. They may have bowed and nodded and showed a level of decorum for your liking...but the things they did..I mean you were never truly comfortable with were you? I have to believe that's part of the reason you left..because of what they DID. With Ashley..you may think her a pig..but at least she refuses to put on lipstick. So it's a gamble. Proper women doing horrible things..or an absolutely brash woman who ends up doing the right thing, despite her words and feelings?"
Oh, REALLY, Vivica!?
:: she said pointedly::
Vivica said:
:: She held up a hand. ::
"Dominique. Don't get me wrong. I don't bring that up to make you angry or to insult your character..You have your reasons and they are your own and that's it..
:: She wasn't going to let this go unaddressed::
You're quite right!
I found Enchantrah to be a vapid trollop, who did her best work on her BACK, and Malice...though most impressive with her ambition and tenancity....her origins and unabashed claim to MYSTECH were ABHORRENT to me...to my very core, and she knew that.
She came to me when I was at the HEIGHT of my campaign of vengeance against Nicolas. At the time, the opportunity and advantage were apparent to me, and so...we agreed to our union as the original Sisterhood. Each of us went in KNOWING she had her own unique set of goals, and I made it CLEAR that if the time came that being part of the Sisterhood no longer served me or my purposes, I would leave.
The Sisterhood became a NECESSARY ingredient in stopping the threat of Set he first time, and TRUCE brought about an...unusual era for The Six and The Sisterhood.
But the writing on the wall became apparent to me after Viper, and it was quite clear after the Purifiers that my time with the Hellfire Club had come to an end.
I still don't see how you can draw any SUBSTANTIAL comparison between my path and Ashley's...but your effort to do so is certainly INSPIRED.
.I just say it to highlight the point that Ashley may be what you believe to be everything wrong with a person..but when push comes to shove, she does the right thing. She puts the bullshit aside no matter how mad she is, no matter how much she doesn't agree in the moment. And right now? With the state of things as they are..we could all use people around us that do the RIGHT THING."
:: Well now. Dominique paused....::
::But Dominique would NOT yield on ONE point...::
100 good deeds can't atone for one act of abuse, Vivica.
She may "be there" when the chips are down...but WHO would want or NEED someone who constantly ridicules and mocks them as an ALLY?
She may step forward in BATTLE, but our lives are MORE than just the next battle, and a TEAM doesn't just "come together" in an emergency. Doing the RIGHT THING extends to more than the battle field.
As pointless and irrelevant as I found Enchantrah to be on a personal level, and as DISGUSTING as Malice was...even THEY knew how to stand shoulder to shoulder in a battle, which is why the THREE of us were able to defeat our adversaries, who's numbers DOUBLED ours. But it was more than just the battle.
I do NOT want my ward, Richard, being exposed to a group dynamic where behavior such as ASHLEY'S is tolerated, and excused, while any attempt to challenge it or hold her accountable is silenced. I worked VERY hard to help him see CLEARLY while we were at the Hellfire Mansion, and I'm going to continue to do that, and I suspect that it will be better...HEALTHIER for him to do it ELSEWHERE, even if he DOES express a desire to remain here.
:: And almost on cue::
"I think you should stick around because it's uncomfortable. You're so put together. So absolutely solid and strong. Maybe it's time to get a little messy. A little bit dirty. Surround yourself with people who AREN'T like you.so that YOU can grow. Learn new things. Nicky loves you. Rich loves you. I think maybe when you weren't looking you found that you've unintentionally created a LIFE here..and I don't think that life is over...I think you might be at a point where it's just beginning. And I think all of us..with our different personalities..different ways of doing things, could maybe make you see the world a little bit bigger..and I think, even though it might not be easy at first...though nothing ever worth doing is..that your refinement, your CONTROL..your ability to be so strong and powerful in the face of adversity, could help our stars burn a little bit BRIGHTER."
:: Hesitating for a moment, she grabbed Dominique's hand. The first time they had ever made direct contact like this. ::
:: Dominique JOLTED at this unprecedented display, this physical contact! it was indeed the first time EVER that she and Vivica had interacted like this, much less TOUCHED one another. Her initial jolt of dismay passed...Vivica was coming from a genuine place, Dominique sensed the passion, the inspired nature of Vivica's attempt to understand and APPEAL to Dominique regarding her status with the team, and just like with Nicolas, Morgan, Delilah, and even Oracle at one point, it RESONATED with her.::
:: Dominique did not immediately respond. Vivica's words were echoing in her mind, her heart!::
::FLASH!::
Vivica said:
Maybe it's time to get a little messy. A little bit dirty. Surround yourself with people who AREN'T like you.so that YOU can grow. Learn new things. Nicky loves you. Rich loves you. I think maybe when you weren't looking you found that you've unintentionally created a LIFE here..and I don't think that life is over...I think you might be at a point where it's just beginning. And I think all of us..with our different personalities..different ways of doing things, could maybe make you see the world a little bit bigger..and I think, even though it might not be easy at first...though nothing ever worth doing is..that your refinement, your CONTROL..your ability to be so strong and powerful in the face of adversity, could help our stars burn a little bit BRIGHTER."
:: Dominique slowly removed her hand, and softened her look toward Vivica, swallowing hard in that moment. Those words, coupled with Richard's plaintive response to her in the Parthenon, they hit her like a truck::
"Please give us some more time, Dominique. I can help. I WANT to help...if you'll let me."
:: Dominique looked away::
::FLASH!::
Oracle said:
“We pick and choose who we help, then? Some are worthy of it, and some are not? Am I understanding you all correctly?”
She closed her eyes and shook her head.
“I didn’t choose all of you because you were perfect, flawlessly good, people. I chose you because of your potential to do good, to do great things together.
She opened her eyes and looked, truly looked, at each of them.
“The same reasoning goes for Valkyrie, does it not? Though we take a risk, accepting her into our midst, consider the alternative. If we turn her out, where will she go? What will she do? At least with us, she has a chance. A chance to learn to be a better person, to care about people again after shutting everyone out for so long. She is not perfect, by far, but she is not lost to us either. But if we turn away from her, we condemn her outright.”
She locked eyes with each of the four in turn, then let her gaze hover over each of the others assembled there.
“And that is something I will NEVER do, to any mutant, or any person. Not so long as there is breath in my body. I will NOT cast her out. I will NOT turn my back on someone so desperately in need of help. Will you?”
Richard Martin said:
I dunno, Miss D. When you met me I was a kid who swore a lot, washed MAYBE once a week if I was lucky, had NO MONEY and was completely incapable of not leering at you like a complete loser 24/7/365. I look back, I have no idea why you dusted me off and kept me anyway. But I am glad you did. And part of that journey has been overlooking sometimes when I overstep, correcting me when I am wrong and encouraging me. That is why I love you Miss D, because you did not have to do SHIT for me. But you DID.
[Now why in the HELL was I crying? No idea, but I was.]
Now this here? I dunno, maybe Isis is testing you again, seeing if you will be able to look past the surface crap and find the value underneath. When shit went left with the Purifiers, all of the BoP stepped up. Now there is messiness going on, and there is no excuse for dropping the ball on responsibilities or for prejudice against Amazons, but we know they WANT to do the right thing. Look, I will follow you to hell, Lady. I guess you have to decide if I used up all of your tolerance for one lifetime. If you have, I can only be grateful that you used it all up on me
:: Without knowing it, Oracle, Richard, and now, Vivica had all managed to appeal to Isis in a way that couldn't be denied. Surely, f these particular people were all painting a picture for her, she could allow herself to see it?::
:: she closed her eyes, shutting them TIGHTLY for a moment, as Vivica saw tears fall from them::
I...didn't expect that things would happen the way they did...
:: referring to everything from Nicolas up till now.::
...I have traveled the world...I have lived a life beyond that of fairytales...and to find myself HERE in this moment?
:: she hurridly grabbed a tissue from the kleenex box on the nightstand::
I don't know HOW I can carry on with these people, Vivica! You make it sound like....it's even POSSIBLE.
::shuddering a bit::
You're right, this is NOT the life I imagined for myself.
But Richard seems so....HAPPY now. What kind of caretaker would I be to him, if I took him away from this!
:: Richard had already made it clear that if she left, he would follow. But she recalled her conversations with Oracle regarding Richard, insisting on accommodation for him, Oracle even offered to have him train with Steel...and Valkyrie...::
Vivica....you ask me to give them TIME....but look what's happening around us. As I told Delilah, TIME is something we may not HAVE.
You and Oracle are asking something of me, that I don't know I can GIVE, not while that WOMAN continues as she does. I'm not JUST speaking for myself either. The AMAZONS do not deserve her ridicule. What will SHE give, what will any of the OTHERS give?
:: She dabs the tears away, and allows herself to look at Vivica once more::
"The right thing" needs to start now, and EVERYONE needs to be committed to it.
:: In her own way, she was implying that she would be willing to at least TRY..but she was NOT going to accept status quo, or "more of the same"::